M Is Doing Great!

Now that we have two kiddles once again, I still yearn a bit for the one kiddle we no longer have in our home. BUT he is still in our lives and that means the world to both us.

I still wonder what he is doing during his days and what is making him laugh and do his little dance that he does. His smile is easy to come by and his excitement about the little things is contagious. I still miss him obviously but it's a healthy mindset.

Because we are able see him for days at a time, we are getting to see how he is doing with having been returned to his birth dad.

As selfish as it seems, it was difficult to see that he was bonding with his dad in the beginning. But we also knew that that was suppose to happen and it was a good thing that the bonding was taking place. As his attachment will get him through much in his life ahead.

Letting go of this creature was the most difficult thing we had ever had to do in our lives, yet we have gained more from this experience than we ever thought.

And we continue to gain so much from the experience as it has evolved to our having a relationship with him and his birth dad.

In having this continued relationship, we have been able to see the strides M has made and the positive development that should be taking place. And it is...

We are so blessed to see M, play, hug, kiss, and share time with him and our two other kiddles, his brother and now new sister.

It has been truly wonderful knowing that Mis doing great.

We still get to be Momma and Daddy to him and that is special to the both us.

He is just so special to me and I can't help but to pine for him from time to time. He will always hold an amazing place in my heart because he was the first child to come into our home and into our hearts.

I love you, M, and hope you will always know that no matter where you are in life!

I am thrilled that Daddy and I get to spent so much time with you, and that you get to play with your brother N and now your new older sister, N.

I hope you also know how thrilled we are that you're doing so well with your birth dad and your extended family, who cares for you while your birth dad works.

Keep smiling and dancing your dance. You will go far in life and change lives in your midst.

I'll love you forever and ever, M!

Love always,

Your Momma