Just Thoughts @ 12:31 AM

I can't sleep because of thoughts rolling around in my mind.

I'm thinking of my kiddles, N and Lil' Peanut.

I am in awe of their presence in my life.

I ask the question, 'How did I deserve these two?'

My heart responds with, 'Silly, it's not that you deserved them, but that you were given them as gifts.'

'Oh, of course, silly me!' I say out loud to myself.

My life thus far has been interesting to say the least. But nothing can compare to being a parent. How amazing a journey it is so far.

I was holding N in my arms, helping him to reach a state of sleep. There in those tender moments I sighed deeply and with a great sense of peace and fulfillment.

His head on my shoulder, his legs dangling close to my knees, his arms wrapped around my arms, and oh the weight of him seemed weightless.

Oh, the sweetness of my life is overflowing with gratefulness.

I was laying in bed, listening to the quiet of our home, knowing I have been given two amazing and beautiful creatures to care for and raise up, as best as I can. Thank, god, that I don't have to do that all on my own.

I prayed for them.

I prayed that they would know how very much their momma and daddy love them and perhaps one day know and love jesus, in their own individual ways.

I prayed that religion would not get to the best of them and that their compassion would always remain present in any situation they find themselves in.

I prayed for another day with them...

Hearing them laugh, seeing them play, playing with them, and hugging them another time.

Oh, how I love and adore my wonderful kiddles!

Thank you, jesus.