I Forgot...

Oh ya, I forgot that they both will do anything to have you not put them in their car seat. That could include screaming, crying, arching the ol' back, grabbing a hold of your neck with their nails embedded, as well as holding on to anything that will allow them more time of what they figure is freedom. And sometimes I can't blame them, especially come summer when it is bloody hot in the van. But otherwise, they are riding in shear comfort, an Eddie Bauer brand car seat. What's not to like??!! Ha!

Let's see - the other things that occur in our household is with N not sleeping at night because he is too busy working on his rolling over stuff. He has decided it's play time or exercise time, which ever way he wants to look at it. We just crack up and wonder what he will do next. It's all a new thing for him so he is just trying to figure it all out in his timing, of course.

This Wednesday will be a very hard day for Michael and me. Neither of us are looking forward to it. But it was eventually coming and we knew it. It just sucks that reality has to hit. We are having to bring M to visitation and leave him there for the full day, 9am-4pm. This will be the first time we've been away from him for that long a time during visitation. Up until now he had had only a two hour visit with his birth dad. Actually, it's never easy to leave him even for the two hour visit. Basically because we just wish he could be ours forever. But we signed up for this and new what the game plan was and were willing to play along. But, again, reality sets in and BAM! it hits like a mac truck. Even when we know it's coming, it still seems to side swipe us emotionally. It just totally sucks!!!!!

So when I hear M cry, whine or scream, I just enjoy it for what it is because I know I may not be hearing it after August 15th. I just want to cry a river...