I Can...I Think...I Hope...I Pray...Damn! A Poem

I know I can sing.

But does it sound anything like what I hear?

Can you nod once for yes, and nod twice for no?

I need to know.

I know I can sing.

But my kiddles ask me not to.

Does it sound that bad to them or is it distorted by their lack of development?

Can you nod once for yes, and nod twice for no?

I need to know.

I know I can sing.

People have given me accolades after my performance. But was it in truth or just to be kind?

Can you nod once for yes, and nod twice for no?

I need to know.

The birds seem to enjoy my sounds, if they haven't left the tree.

But it is because they are waiting for their next flight plan or just scratching their feet on the bark?

Can you nod once for yes, and nod twice for no?

I need to know.

Babies have giggled, smiled and cood when I sing. But is it because they are gassy, have no muscle control and mimicing only the sounds I was making?

Can you nod once for yes, and nod twice for no?

I need to know.

I know I can sing.

I know I can sing.

I need to know if I can sing.

Will you nod once for yes, and nod twice for no?

I need to know.

I need to know.

I hope I can.

I pray that I can.

Damn!

If I'm having to question so much, I'm thinking I can't. And there just ain't no way around it no matter how many I ask, no matter how much I copy the artist on the radio, no matter how well I think I may do at kaorake, no matter if little grammas give me sweet nothings, no matter if and when the cows do decide to come home.

I need to know.

Can you nod once for yes, and nod twice for no?

I need to know
- because it would meet a great need deep within.
- because I want to be famous for such a talent.
- because I can think of no other gift I'd like than the gift of music to reach the soul of another.
- because I know I can sing and it would hurt too much to know I can't.

Would you just nod once for yes and just leave it at that?